donderdag 22 december 2016

To find out who you are and what you want

(I only use my own pictures in blog posts and videos)

To find out who you are (and eventually find out what you want) you have to go back in time. Years back in time.
The times when you were a little kid, starting to develop your own personality more and more. Starting to want. Starting to dream.
Go back to where your personality was as untouched as possible.
Untouched by outside influences like the people around you, the people you look up tp, teachers, television, internet and so on
Your own wants and needs are your true nature.
We shouldn't ignore our true nature, because it's how we should live our lifes. What makes us as happy and fullfilled as possible.

'Geke why are you sitting on the bench?' Asks my gym teacher to the 6 year old me. 'I don't like doing things others tell me to do and I want to quit gym' was my simple answer.

I could never do things when others wanted me to do it. I suddenly felt myself not wanting it anymore and rebelling against it.
Still I always found myself living up to what is expected.
I didn't have a voice. The young me was shy and this developed in social anxiety, because I felt uncomfortable and judged when I was around people. I was afraid to speak up and say what was on my mind.
Behind all of that I very much had strong opinions, believes, dreams..
but different than most other kids and grown ups. One of the reasons I couldn't speak up and had problems with really developing my own wants and needs.

Over the years I showed this in all kinds of ways, but not with my voice.
I dressed different, I listened to different music, I liked to spend my time different, rebelled against the things all teen girls were starting to like. Still I tried to fit into a certain group.
At one point all of this changed and I just went with the flow. Just did what was expected.
And it followed with depressions.

These depressions made me think and made me reflect on the 'why?'.
It takes time and it takes (life) experience to get to the point when you know who you actually are. What makes it easier is when you don't let others have influence on you, but in the society we live in it's almost impossible.

I'm not afraid anymore, I have a voice, I speak up, I am myself, the choices I make are not based on what is expected.
Now I'm finding myself and now I'm starting to know what I want.
The things I want are things that suit my personality, likes and believes.

What helped me in this process and could be of help for you:
-talk with like minded people
-surround yourself with people(and things) that give you positive vibes and find out who/what gives you negative vibes. Try to be around them as less as possible.
-try to always have your focus on the positive and not on the negative. Find the smallest positive things in everything you do, see and experience. Maybe make a gratitude book?

-read fitting books (the power of now, the law of attraction, quiet: the power of introverts, furiously name it!)
-the same goes for movies, tv shows, documentaries..
-Reflect on why you're feeling a certain why
-realize that what is expected(even when YOU expect it) might not be the best thing for your happiness
-know that it's oke to not know, doesn't matter where you are in life. Take your time!
-take enough 'you time' and make relaxing a rule
I just know this is not all and it's hard to say what 'does the trick', but if you try to do all of these things.. you will come a long way!

And let me tell you..we will search for things to want our entire lives!
Don't make a certain decision your only one. Maybe at one point you want something entirely different, just do it! 
For example a job, don't think about everything you had to do to get that one job.
If it doesn't make you happy anymore, change your course. 

We only have one life so better make the best of it!

maandag 12 december 2016

Breakfast Recipe | vegan cinnamon waffles + chocolate nicecream

This recipe is too easy and delicious not to share!
In my opinion waffles are like pancakes, but for lazy people haha.
You make the batter, put it in a waffle maker or a waffle mold (like me) and wait.
I made it less lazy and decided to make some nicecream to go with the waffles.

Don't feel like making the nicecream or you don't have the tools? Don't worry, I got ya!
Make the easy, jummy chocolate sauce instead ;)
(or make both..)
Being lazy? Top them with a nutbutter or strawberry jelly! Jumm.

For the waffels you'll need:
- 55gr (1/4 cup?) of flour (I used oat flour)
- As much cinnamon as you like, I used a lot!
- About 1/2 a tbsp of coconut sugar (depends on how sweet you want them to be)
- About a tsp of baking powder
- 1/2 a frozen ripe banana
- 1/2 cup plant milk (use any kind you like)
x Optional: vanilla, I used stevia vanilla drops
x Optional: raisins or anything else you want in your waffles.
Cacao nibs, chocolate, nuts?

For the nicecream you'll need:
- As much as frozen ripe bananas you like
- Cacao, I used a heaping tsp. For a rich cacao taste add a lot, otherwise add less
(leave out the cacao if you want a neutral taste and maybe add another flavouring like cinnamon, vanilla, strawberries or other fruit)

For the optional chocolate sauce you'll need:
- Agave syrup
- Cacao
- Water

How to make it:
1. Put the flour, baking powder and coconut sugar in a bowl. Whisk together.
2. Mash the banana in a bowl
3. Add the plant milk(optional: vanilla drops) and mix the milk and banana together
4. Mix the wet and dry ingredients together.
(The batter shouldn't be too runny and not too thick.)
5. Grab your mold  (or waffle maker) and pour the batter in!
In the airfryer: 180 degrees, 11 min
In the oven: 180 degrees, about 20 min
6. For the nicecream you can use as much frozen bananas as you like, put them in a mixing bowl(or food processor, high speed blender..)
7. Mix the nicecream with whatever you're using. I used my immersion blender!
8. Add a heaping tsp (or more or less) to the nicecream and mix again
9. Put the nicecream in the freezer until you're ready to use it
10. Time to plate up! Put you're waffles on a plate, grab your nicecram and
scoop it on top.
I topped it off with some homemade cinnamon granola

The chocolate sauce:1. Put some cacao in a small bowl, the amount depends on how thick or thin
you want the sauce to be
2. Add about 1/2 a tbsp agave syrup and a little bit of water
3. Mix together. First it will look like the cacao won't 'blend in', but eventually it will
4. Now add some more water, until you have the concistency you want

Enjoy! <3